haiz - 5:47 PM
anyway skill CD for both bio and chem's over. i guess both were ok. i mean after the SUBTLE hints frm people who took before that. hahaha well so i haven't been feeling depressed after every paper like i always am for exams. except today when i reached home i was depressed. i had just finished my piano and i was feeling totally dejected. at my state of preparation how am i supposed to sit for the exam? i'd probably fail again =( the thing i'm angry about is i've been working and practising but why is it i make no progress. argh. and with the totally screwed up common test thats gonna take place i won't have time to practise. how many mroe weeks? errr 2?! i can't play stacco for scales. i can't play arpeggios. i can't do the stacco for my 1st song and my teacher says the way i play makes the song sound very scattered, like there's no idea of the song. the 2nd piece i can't do the cross hand part. but my teacher says its the best out of the 3. and my 3rd piece i can't do tempo rubato properly. my teacher says i completely change the tempo. oh man i'm some loser. oh well watever. i've slept pass my depression. time to study for skill A.
oh ya another thing bothering me is that my left eye has been constantly swollen and itchy for the pass week! and its always after i wake up. no i don't use renu contact lens solution nor any baush and lomb (if thats how u spell it) products. why i duno. this time it really feels like an infection. coz sometimes when i get up the eye is so covered with the fluid that i have to pry it open with my hands. oh wat is with this year and my eye!!! tell me. i've nvr had this problem before for the pass 3 yrs i've been wearing lenses!!! izzit coz my lenses are too old? haiz!
health, study, piano. what a bother. time to mug HARD for Skill A. hopefully the nxt time i update abt a wk later i'd be in a pleasent mood =(